Just about 12 hours ago I was force-feeding myself with the "on normal days very good tasting " egg-coated fried bread. Sigh, didnt manage to feed myself at all before I started feeling damn sick. Pre-race jitters? Probably. There was major head-spinning and STUFF rushing up to your chest feeling. Sigh. Pre-race jitters? Probably.

Another point, it is really not funny how I wake and sleep and wake and sleep for umpteen times through the night. 1am 3am then 5 am. ( thereabouts)and end up sleeping on the way there, half way while stretching, half way while waiting in the call room. Why the sudden surge of undying brain activity when I dont need them. I suck.

Whats the use of running the race over and over in your head when your body doesnt enable you to. Well, my point, I have psychoed myself so well that I have overlooked the ACTUAL physical fitness that I possess. I am serious, people with my fitness now would probably be pulling out and hiding at home , wait not even bothering to take part at all. Whats the use of
lying to yourself! I should make myself more worthy in other areas next year. I had quite enough of lying to myself.

Well congratulations to all worthy opponents. You have done good ... GREAT.

Damn it I realised theres school tmrw. Like lessons. F it la.
But i want to watch ZHENJIE run ! and of course the finals too which proves to be weird. ( We have visited this before, just that there is LESS/MORE agony, 9th and last? )

100h better be good. Tmrw shall be spent on hurdle drills.  ¶ 3:02 AM