IM SO FRIGGIN TIRED!

there's this song where they sing about insecurities and empty spaces but I forgot which.
But anyway, I 'm so terribly afraid that this year would turn out like the last. All the resolute , fire, dying away, first by weekly sprays of water , gradually followed by torrential rain and finally POOF! to be gone, put out by a terrible hailstorm.

Everyone has their insecurities lah. But some manage it all too well. They appear or might they act so well that those who can't feel, like another chunk of rock have just loosen from the cliff. For me, i tend to shrug it off. For one , it sucks to give away your witnesses whole sale, you'll be a total immediate noob.

Now now, no one wants to be a noob. Right? Or maybe! Some are already noobs.
Eff, this are nonsense.
I dumped pole vault. Sorry aye
I dumped doing weights by myself
I dumped my routine

I am so friggin LAZY as well.
It seems things can be improved so much more for me. But I'm so totally not helping myself

Well, spoke to both teachers today. They oddly care about what I do. Much more than certain people who , in pretence, sit faraway and not care but afterwards bug and tug the shirts of others to find out every single detail.

Then I might conclude, one of them. Probably due to his ( my speculation ) conflict with another certain someone did not seem that much impressed. Nevertheless, thank you for not feeding this tiny light more water.

The stupid chinese show is on and the house is so noisy
I need some good sleep
I need to do away with a certain excess weight

IM STILL SO FRIGGIN TIRED  ¶ 5:37 AM