trng at MacR today. Did long run with shufang. Almost killed myself by going too fast. What if I really killed myself. Oh how cool. My head was throbbing and still is throbbing.

Throbbing , hurts , thinking
Don't think , won't hurt , won't throb.
It doesn't work that way. Oh well.

People all want to go to heaven but they are afraid to die. I dun ask to go to heaven. I mean when we are dead our senses just blank out of use , we start to disintegrate and become part of the ground that we trample on , when you die you are nothing better than dump. Oh you have a choice, lose more water content and put up in a confinement like a genie. You got your wish and now its your turn to grant 3 wishes and let the living make a fool outta you.

Caught in a buzz of activity , people pumping their thoughts into you , needles inserted at the wrong places cos you can't find the bloody vein . So doing it that it grates your nerves that you clench your fist and prepare to bang it so that all will stop only to receive another blow which leaves you clueless what you have just endured.

my head is still throbbing.

Some people are thinking too much. They should not kill themselves.
Some people are not thinking. They shouldnt not kill themselves.  ¶ 11:37 PM