I cry out above , heaven save me

but I'm down to one last breath

sigh. I lead a sad life. Sad , no freedom to express. Sad , no rebutts allowed to be made. Sad , a crime for looking tired all day. Sad, for displaying a tinge of frustration. Sad , for not being able to be the child my parents want me to be. Sad , the previous does not carry any regret.

My volcabulary can never suffice in the story I have to tell. The explanations I try to bring forth will always sound flaccid and unreasonable. People say, try to ignore. I have tried well , for a while it certainly works. But in the long run when you have parents who read ignorance as a utmost sign of their kid being rebellious.

Just like what he said.

After all , your mom is your mom , your dad is your dad. What can you do? Walk out on them? What good do you get?

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happier things then.

not much happier though.

It's confirmed. I am off to Rome arnd 12/13th. 9 days on tour. No need to walk around aimlessly and get all irritated in the cold like on previous tours. Totally spoils the fun. Hope the food will be good. =P Hope to be back by christmas eve (:

After the major screwup on thur, I have decided to just work hard til at least Sunday is over. I mean how can I afford to screwup. Was told that J.Koh plus quite a number of big shot people are in for the concert tmrw. * shudders. I certainly do hope they turn the air condition down.

Track Seniors' Farewell at Wei Loong's place later in the evening. Hmm, I dunno what to wear. Hope it'll be fun. Currently feeling vv left out cos I dun exactly knw what's going on. Not that I dun make an effort to try to learn of the details but ohwells. I hope my wound doesnt start spewing blood like ytd. YES YES, its small but .. ITS DANGEROUS.

well it all amounts to nothing in the end

I won't worry my life away

¶ 6:06 PM