Thursday, November 24, 2005
Ohwels. Its just weird how some people are so sure at confirming what they see. They just don't realise that hmmm .. what they say abt ME is not at all correct. I myself am too sure of who I am and what I want , and there you go .. rambling on as if you are so sure .. as if the sky were to fall on 26 July 2015 or whatever.
I am not any place to go against you and I can't. Conventionally , it would be rude and I would kill myself gg against you cause there you would go employing your " red herring " method , pulling along a whole string of unrelated events or however you want to put me down. Then again, good will always prevail ( i am good muahaha ) and its a matter of time when I finally gear up my Man and Ideas and put forth every argument and label your every false and unsound claim.
I am so tired of trying to fufil your expectations. Everything I do is always open to criticisms. Ok , you will say.. Its for my own good and I'd be a better person if I heeded all of those. What am I ? Some dough thingy that you can squeeze and mould at your own delight ? I am who I am and I have my own life to lead .. my life to lead means I take control of my life and yes I will try to follow the necessities. However , it does not mean I have to follow how you want me to hold my chopsticks , I have to follow how you read the newspapers , how you want me to do all the stuff ( which I am too embarrassed to mention )
I sound like a very very deprived child. But this is not my desperate attempt to invite pity but my call to all those who happen to be stuck in the same dire situation TO NOT LET THE EVIL SIDE TAKE CONTROL OF YOU. observe the sad ending of anakin skywalker .. the evil might be inviting but make the correct choice and take control of your own life. seriously.
To contradict my previous claim. I think I am an extremely provided child in some other aspects. Being ferried from place to place .. oh the list goes on. Have I ever taken into consideration how lucky I might be .. all the cliche matters. Even the word " cliche" itself is cliche and overused and all itself.
Blog hoping makes me ponder over many stuff and even end up worrying for other people. In a way you take on the other party's troubles and somehow you dig up a problem that becomes seemingly similar. What's not there suddenly appears ? Asking for trouble you might say. hmm, but I think its good .. in a way . when something of certain similarity comes along, you'll be spared from certain flustered -ness and worrying. oh woah such careless ranting cant continue.
the week so far , has been, fabulous , i think.
monday : training - tired but productive i guess :)
tuesday : CIP with the canoeists and other ccas. Practically took up the whole day but it was well spent, met new people and oh my god watched those muscles at work ( heh! ) Got to work with this really nice guy but I got darn tired towards the end and resorted to watching the stuff at the void deck. close to 12 hrs , gg door to door. hahahah
wednesday : trng in the morning. First time in a long while that I feel my legs working efficiently. I have to admit that I was quite happy with my strides. finished early and settled down for a nap while waiting for the others. played tennis a while with alyssa and embarked on my lonely wait for dear shufang who chose to go home in the end. Misplaced my shoebag .. only realised when i reached yck mrt with doris. A frantic rush to call up people in school but all of them couldnt see any shoebags. BUMMED. $ 150. made dear weeteng wait for a darn darn long time .. SORRY DEAR ):reached home only near 3.
DODGEBALL is still as disturbing as ever (: and so is mahjong. I love my friends so much (:
today is thursday , the 4th day of the week and nearing my exams.
was extremely glad to hear that I will indeed pass my PC. with certain assurance she said .. I really feel very glad. And my prog notes are just lack of certain decorations. Looks like everything's fine after all . * big glad sigh
tmrw is friday , off to sn to collect stuff again ( shant mention abt the remarkable * cough ,working attitudes of the related people , im just too amazed ) then off to sharon's house then trng. I really hope I get my shoebag back though.
LEARN TO EMBRACE WHAT YOU HAVE. ok i just had to say that ¶ 8:30 PM
I am not any place to go against you and I can't. Conventionally , it would be rude and I would kill myself gg against you cause there you would go employing your " red herring " method , pulling along a whole string of unrelated events or however you want to put me down. Then again, good will always prevail ( i am good muahaha ) and its a matter of time when I finally gear up my Man and Ideas and put forth every argument and label your every false and unsound claim.
I am so tired of trying to fufil your expectations. Everything I do is always open to criticisms. Ok , you will say.. Its for my own good and I'd be a better person if I heeded all of those. What am I ? Some dough thingy that you can squeeze and mould at your own delight ? I am who I am and I have my own life to lead .. my life to lead means I take control of my life and yes I will try to follow the necessities. However , it does not mean I have to follow how you want me to hold my chopsticks , I have to follow how you read the newspapers , how you want me to do all the stuff ( which I am too embarrassed to mention )
I sound like a very very deprived child. But this is not my desperate attempt to invite pity but my call to all those who happen to be stuck in the same dire situation TO NOT LET THE EVIL SIDE TAKE CONTROL OF YOU. observe the sad ending of anakin skywalker .. the evil might be inviting but make the correct choice and take control of your own life. seriously.
To contradict my previous claim. I think I am an extremely provided child in some other aspects. Being ferried from place to place .. oh the list goes on. Have I ever taken into consideration how lucky I might be .. all the cliche matters. Even the word " cliche" itself is cliche and overused and all itself.
Blog hoping makes me ponder over many stuff and even end up worrying for other people. In a way you take on the other party's troubles and somehow you dig up a problem that becomes seemingly similar. What's not there suddenly appears ? Asking for trouble you might say. hmm, but I think its good .. in a way . when something of certain similarity comes along, you'll be spared from certain flustered -ness and worrying. oh woah such careless ranting cant continue.
the week so far , has been, fabulous , i think.
monday : training - tired but productive i guess :)
tuesday : CIP with the canoeists and other ccas. Practically took up the whole day but it was well spent, met new people and oh my god watched those muscles at work ( heh! ) Got to work with this really nice guy but I got darn tired towards the end and resorted to watching the stuff at the void deck. close to 12 hrs , gg door to door. hahahah
wednesday : trng in the morning. First time in a long while that I feel my legs working efficiently. I have to admit that I was quite happy with my strides. finished early and settled down for a nap while waiting for the others. played tennis a while with alyssa and embarked on my lonely wait for dear shufang who chose to go home in the end. Misplaced my shoebag .. only realised when i reached yck mrt with doris. A frantic rush to call up people in school but all of them couldnt see any shoebags. BUMMED. $ 150. made dear weeteng wait for a darn darn long time .. SORRY DEAR ):reached home only near 3.
DODGEBALL is still as disturbing as ever (: and so is mahjong. I love my friends so much (:
today is thursday , the 4th day of the week and nearing my exams.
was extremely glad to hear that I will indeed pass my PC. with certain assurance she said .. I really feel very glad. And my prog notes are just lack of certain decorations. Looks like everything's fine after all . * big glad sigh
tmrw is friday , off to sn to collect stuff again ( shant mention abt the remarkable * cough ,working attitudes of the related people , im just too amazed ) then off to sharon's house then trng. I really hope I get my shoebag back though.
LEARN TO EMBRACE WHAT YOU HAVE. ok i just had to say that ¶ 8:30 PM
