Wednesday, June 15, 2005
damn. have been slacking too much. staying up til so late but not doing any work. finished maths hmwk but chinese not TOUCHED. damn damn scary. SPIRE SPIRE SPIRE SPIRE. buay si only. wah, super jialat.
haiyah. everyone's so in touch with one another and here I am, plonked at home with no motivation to call anyone and much less go out. piang eh, im so anti-social. just looking at their tagboards make me all zibei, they are like constantly hearing each other out, even the weirdest combi of people are somehow like" SHARING SECRETS" . oh my so creepy, i need to catch up! im lagging by 2 centuries.
sometimes i think im just too full of myself. i have to admit im rather self centered. I do things to my benefit, Ive never gone the extra mile to improve the lives of other people unless they in some way aid mine. damn. im very selfish. help. suddenly just felt so out of place, when I overheard mom talking to some friend and they sounded damn happy, and i was even more shocked when she said it was her p1 friend. damn. how many p school friends am i in touch with.. " counts fingers. and its only becos they are still in the same school as i am now. wahh, so techinically isNONE la. and im like only 15 years old. im really anti-social. bad bad bad. i need counselling.
stupid la. sit here and blog and blog , complain and complain and complain and not doing anything abt it. makes me sound like a spastic individual that im suppoe to detest. woah, i think im on the verge of hating myself which i kinda promised CANNOT happen for at least until 2 months time. damn. im wasting alot alot alot of time. and they say TIME IS PRECIOUS , TIME FLIES, TIME CANNOT TURN BACK, BLAH BLAH BLAH. yes la yes la, VERY TRUE OKAY. thank you.
In their eyes, we are never as good as they are. We will never be as good as they are. I just cannot figure out what makes us so insignificant. We're as human as you are. In case if you think being with us is a chore, is a very shameful thing, let me tell you, with you around, its just the same. Yeah yeah I knw, at your age, all it matters is to show that you are steady and not good to push around. Everything that happens to you is always more tragic and terrible than ours. Everything that happens to us is " NVM LA." goodness. now I knw what's wrong with you.
then again, have I tried enough to gain that respect and that needed acknowledgement ? Have I actually done anything worthy. I'm not in any position to actually decide. but its like staring down at a page of a book written by you which contains all that I have said and at the bottom of the page you see that that page credits to some other people instead of me. damn, anyone would feel cheated.
¶ 2:45 AM
haiyah. everyone's so in touch with one another and here I am, plonked at home with no motivation to call anyone and much less go out. piang eh, im so anti-social. just looking at their tagboards make me all zibei, they are like constantly hearing each other out, even the weirdest combi of people are somehow like" SHARING SECRETS" . oh my so creepy, i need to catch up! im lagging by 2 centuries.
sometimes i think im just too full of myself. i have to admit im rather self centered. I do things to my benefit, Ive never gone the extra mile to improve the lives of other people unless they in some way aid mine. damn. im very selfish. help. suddenly just felt so out of place, when I overheard mom talking to some friend and they sounded damn happy, and i was even more shocked when she said it was her p1 friend. damn. how many p school friends am i in touch with.. " counts fingers. and its only becos they are still in the same school as i am now. wahh, so techinically isNONE la. and im like only 15 years old. im really anti-social. bad bad bad. i need counselling.
stupid la. sit here and blog and blog , complain and complain and complain and not doing anything abt it. makes me sound like a spastic individual that im suppoe to detest. woah, i think im on the verge of hating myself which i kinda promised CANNOT happen for at least until 2 months time. damn. im wasting alot alot alot of time. and they say TIME IS PRECIOUS , TIME FLIES, TIME CANNOT TURN BACK, BLAH BLAH BLAH. yes la yes la, VERY TRUE OKAY. thank you.
In their eyes, we are never as good as they are. We will never be as good as they are. I just cannot figure out what makes us so insignificant. We're as human as you are. In case if you think being with us is a chore, is a very shameful thing, let me tell you, with you around, its just the same. Yeah yeah I knw, at your age, all it matters is to show that you are steady and not good to push around. Everything that happens to you is always more tragic and terrible than ours. Everything that happens to us is " NVM LA." goodness. now I knw what's wrong with you.
then again, have I tried enough to gain that respect and that needed acknowledgement ? Have I actually done anything worthy. I'm not in any position to actually decide. but its like staring down at a page of a book written by you which contains all that I have said and at the bottom of the page you see that that page credits to some other people instead of me. damn, anyone would feel cheated.
¶ 2:45 AM
