she looks around for things that might assure her , convince her so that she can make up her mind. then again, so what if she makes up her mind , would that decision made up be of any good. i don't think so. she doesn't want to go on pondering, its frustrating but she's afraid that by making up her mind too soon, everything that she had and held so close to her heart would just vanish within that instant. It has been such a magical , pleasant encounter. what a pity if it were to end so soon.
AHAR. BUT THE QTN IS WHETHER IT WOULD ACTUALLY END. HMMMM. conts to ponder.

time and again, i wish i could hold your hand without feelg that the world is going to end  ¶ 5:59 AM