Saturday, May 21, 2005
nothing comes easy but as long as i fight for my cause everything would be worthwhile
during trng, someone told me that my hands were swinging too far back and they look as if they were pushing me backwards instead of making me go forward. hmm. sometimes you think that youre doing something thats good and worthwhile , on the surface that is. but from another perspective, from the view of an outsider, it proves to be otherwise. and you get all skeptical and unsure of what is right and wrong.
i aspire to be on lane4. i will be on lane4. beams and beams of light shining down on lane4. other lanes are dark. pitch dark. everything else moving in slow motion. people with mouths moving , they are screaming but you hear no sound. your vision is ultimately focused. nothing should distract you. nothing should deter you from your cause. im ready for the challenge. i dun care if i fall, i wont.i dun care if i hit my dumb bruise again, cos i wont. i dun care if i lose, cos i wont.
and the fact that you are watched all the time, makes you feel unsure of yourself. makes you feel doubtful abt everyone else. whether they keep the comments to themselves and make a whole lot of fun outta you while you still merrily think that you are perfectly fine and theres nothing you ought to change. i knw its unhealthy to be so self-concsious. just stick to what you should do. cause as a matter of fact, as long as i do it for my cause it is always correct.
people are born selfish. the level of selfishness in each individual varies that is. makes me wonder why. those who are <----------------> this selfish just dun realise how much they are affecting the people arnd them. they try to minimise their damage by acting to be only <---> this selfish. but no matter how, I WLL KNW THAT YOU ARE ALR THIS <-----------------> this selfish and unless something unexpected comes or you are struck by some racket. i dun think you will ever realise that you are forever this <------------------> selfish. it was mistake. total mistake. sometimes people act so well, you think they have really been enlightened. but sometimes you cant expect things to change cos they wont. its a miracle how well people mask themselves. how dumb people can be to be hidden from the true side of the story. appearance vs reality. reminds me of dumb shakespeare. this is just like a solliquy. im macbeth im thinking aloud. hear me out.
macbeth gets so excited over things that are not concretely true. lies build on lies. they all fall down in the end. so its well .. good if you dun hold your hopes too high sometimes and be happy with what you have. being ambitious hinders and helps. sometimes when you feel lik youre the most tragic thing in the world just sit dwn and think , and if you realise that youre not then get back on your feet and work towards being a happier thing. no point sulking.
i can totally imagine you feeling glad that you have done better than i have, and yet youre telling yourself that you have to appear sad so you wont let other people suspect cool i so totally applaud your attitude.
dont go crying over your ** marks cos if they are low, they are low. like even if you cry you wont get higher marks. she wouldnt feel like giving you higher marks. i dun cry over marks. only weaklings do. tears are meant for a better cause.** requires swearing to subdue. oh boy do i love swearing. oh boy am i giving an analysis of this certain individual whom i think would not be able to make a difference that she think she would. shes all the things i dun want to be. ¶ 7:52 PM
during trng, someone told me that my hands were swinging too far back and they look as if they were pushing me backwards instead of making me go forward. hmm. sometimes you think that youre doing something thats good and worthwhile , on the surface that is. but from another perspective, from the view of an outsider, it proves to be otherwise. and you get all skeptical and unsure of what is right and wrong.
i aspire to be on lane4. i will be on lane4. beams and beams of light shining down on lane4. other lanes are dark. pitch dark. everything else moving in slow motion. people with mouths moving , they are screaming but you hear no sound. your vision is ultimately focused. nothing should distract you. nothing should deter you from your cause. im ready for the challenge. i dun care if i fall, i wont.i dun care if i hit my dumb bruise again, cos i wont. i dun care if i lose, cos i wont.
and the fact that you are watched all the time, makes you feel unsure of yourself. makes you feel doubtful abt everyone else. whether they keep the comments to themselves and make a whole lot of fun outta you while you still merrily think that you are perfectly fine and theres nothing you ought to change. i knw its unhealthy to be so self-concsious. just stick to what you should do. cause as a matter of fact, as long as i do it for my cause it is always correct.
people are born selfish. the level of selfishness in each individual varies that is. makes me wonder why. those who are <----------------> this selfish just dun realise how much they are affecting the people arnd them. they try to minimise their damage by acting to be only <---> this selfish. but no matter how, I WLL KNW THAT YOU ARE ALR THIS <-----------------> this selfish and unless something unexpected comes or you are struck by some racket. i dun think you will ever realise that you are forever this <------------------> selfish. it was mistake. total mistake. sometimes people act so well, you think they have really been enlightened. but sometimes you cant expect things to change cos they wont. its a miracle how well people mask themselves. how dumb people can be to be hidden from the true side of the story. appearance vs reality. reminds me of dumb shakespeare. this is just like a solliquy. im macbeth im thinking aloud. hear me out.
macbeth gets so excited over things that are not concretely true. lies build on lies. they all fall down in the end. so its well .. good if you dun hold your hopes too high sometimes and be happy with what you have. being ambitious hinders and helps. sometimes when you feel lik youre the most tragic thing in the world just sit dwn and think , and if you realise that youre not then get back on your feet and work towards being a happier thing. no point sulking.
i can totally imagine you feeling glad that you have done better than i have, and yet youre telling yourself that you have to appear sad so you wont let other people suspect cool i so totally applaud your attitude.
dont go crying over your ** marks cos if they are low, they are low. like even if you cry you wont get higher marks. she wouldnt feel like giving you higher marks. i dun cry over marks. only weaklings do. tears are meant for a better cause.** requires swearing to subdue. oh boy do i love swearing. oh boy am i giving an analysis of this certain individual whom i think would not be able to make a difference that she think she would. shes all the things i dun want to be. ¶ 7:52 PM
