hush little baby don't you cry cause everything's gonna be alright.

then again, i would love to be alone , just on my own. somehow i just work better like that, hmmm no disturbance. i do what i think is right. and waadaaa. having so many people looking on, its intimidating.then again, everyone says it can't be helped. in fact, it's suppose to help. hmmm. let it be.

the things i have learnt have cloaked themselves in the invisibitlity cloak. they take their cloaks off when they feel like it. darn i hope they strip naked during tmrw's test. i need to read every detail on them. i sound sick. but anyways.

evaluation :

today's trng : 5/10 ( well at least, i completed the assigned)
> lousy mindset
> got dissed
> got dissed
> got dissed
somehow. in someway. not the normal way but some way that i define as dissing. darn i get dissed almost every single day of my life. never mind abt that. was worrying abt tmrw's DUMB test all the time.

perhaps its a long term thing, they dun seem very eager to put me on the line. well perhaps they haven made up my mind. but even if they have, i believe their decision would always be a win-win one. but looking at the big pic all the time might not work, its the small details that form the puzzle. perhaps time is better spent on more worthy components, some other things can wait. at the end of the day, it'll be the big picture standing out. i'll do my best for the big picture. the nitty gritties can wait. and i will wait ( and work ) and see.

arent actually doing very well.
BAD. but never mind. shant dwell.
ive picked up and if theres more, im sure i'll make it soon.
the wonders of a positive mind.
indeed hope suddenly just starts spinnning in you.

tmrw will be a better day.  ¶ 7:31 AM