Thursday, April 28, 2005
my gosh. im so tired. anyways. ive got loads of catching up to do and i have loads of work to complete. gah but beat it. today when i was staring up into the ceiling in class, i saw various memorable moments in my life flash past. is that a NDE. i hope not. gosh , i actually might be near death.
im rather disappointed with myself. can i say that i have tried my best. that would be so nonsensical, like what asjkdghlkh said , how do you knw if you have already tried your best ? well i knw, somehow you would just knw it. its something that no words can describe. so in conclusion , it wasnt my best. And i guess I'm still stuck in a moment and I cant get out of it. cant live in the past and pretend that everything's normal and perfectly fine anymore. gotta do do do do something abt it. i cant afford to be a clown anymore. cant fool around no more. cant be walking on clouds and hoping i wont fall anymore. gotta do something before it all becomes too late.
i'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes til I touch the sky
I will make a wish , take a chance , make a change
and break away.
i dun aspire to fly i just want to walk on firm ground knwing that the road im on leads me to somewhere decent. now i would lay my path with strong foundation , so that no amt of force would disrupt my way.
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had 100 heats today. darn was it embarrassing. could have done better. but FINALS. here i come (: did weights today. and im still unexpectedly " un-weak ". phewphew. im glad. and it was back theraphy again. yay. have you ever how long birds live ? i serioulsy have no idea. hmmm i would so love to live til 70 and then die peacefuully in my sleep.
i want foourrrteeeen. at least a sizable margin from the 2nd. really.
haven done any work today. shant do anyways.
jiahui hearts today. ¶ 7:53 AM
im rather disappointed with myself. can i say that i have tried my best. that would be so nonsensical, like what asjkdghlkh said , how do you knw if you have already tried your best ? well i knw, somehow you would just knw it. its something that no words can describe. so in conclusion , it wasnt my best. And i guess I'm still stuck in a moment and I cant get out of it. cant live in the past and pretend that everything's normal and perfectly fine anymore. gotta do do do do something abt it. i cant afford to be a clown anymore. cant fool around no more. cant be walking on clouds and hoping i wont fall anymore. gotta do something before it all becomes too late.
i'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes til I touch the sky
I will make a wish , take a chance , make a change
and break away.
i dun aspire to fly i just want to walk on firm ground knwing that the road im on leads me to somewhere decent. now i would lay my path with strong foundation , so that no amt of force would disrupt my way.
>
had 100 heats today. darn was it embarrassing. could have done better. but FINALS. here i come (: did weights today. and im still unexpectedly " un-weak ". phewphew. im glad. and it was back theraphy again. yay. have you ever how long birds live ? i serioulsy have no idea. hmmm i would so love to live til 70 and then die peacefuully in my sleep.
i want foourrrteeeen. at least a sizable margin from the 2nd. really.
haven done any work today. shant do anyways.
jiahui hearts today. ¶ 7:53 AM
